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05:00am 27/12/2006
  I haven't posted in forever just wanted to say hi and I miss Karlie. Not much going on here about to go to bed, don't know what I'm doing for new years even yet I'm suppost to see my buddy Pogge have no clue whats going on with that. I'll find out hopeful by thursday. My friend Jeff should be home friday and were gonna go out for some food and maybe drink a little he is 29 but has very bad OCD and his mom won't hardly let him drink but his dad has 1 drink 4 nights a week and Jeff can't drink one w/ him thats not right. He needs a job hasn't had one in a year I think maybe a year 1/2 he wants one badly now. His mom is a too over protective, he also needs to get better w/ his OCD so he can get a girlfriend and get out of the house for good. I miss Pogge haven't seen her since summer it sucks since she's one of my best friends. Karlie and my one year is Febuary 13th but we are celebating it the 14th since thats Valentines day and I have my night class Tuesday. We will either go out for Sushi or some kind of Asian cusine I've been researching I'm excited. Karlie and I have money but away for that which is good. Karlie doesn't really have money but you collected change from peoples clothes in the laundry room and when she got change from money her dad gave her she'd keep it she as a decent amount now and she saved a little more money when she got some for selling back school books. She's gonna save $10.00 when Dawn gives her her xmas money next week or this thursday. Karlie bought me an xmas gift it was so nice because she hasn't ever bought anyone a gift before and it was a thoughtful gift. It made me so happy, in the past I've been snuck into a movie, asked to pay for my own meal, didn't date the people over xmas or birthdays or have one years. My ex and good friend Stephen did buy me gifts though but my ex's Logan, Mike, John, and Jillan didn't Mike snuk me into a movie once and told me once to pay for my own meal and didn't offer to take me on a date and when he came to my house to visit we went out and he asked if I could pay and I knew he had money. Logan had no money at the time so I understand. John and I didn't last but a month 1/2 we are friends again though as of recently. Jillian is another story. I was so happy for the gift I love Karlie for it its a cool gift. I love Karlie forever and ever. Anyway enough of me going on and on I got to go to bed.  
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02:57am 10/09/2006
04:04pm 04/09/2006
  KARLIE IS BETTER! YAY! and friday we are going out to eat taco's I go back to school at 7ish.
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01:21am 23/08/2006
  So I leave in a day 1/2 yay! Anyway this guy still needs an "ass kicking" I just say a good yelling, but one punch in the face might be nice. He needs to learn a lesson not to say shit about me behind my back, also the shit he is saying is that I'm weird and confused because I'm a lesbian well you know what get over it and be nice and say it to my face damnit! I'm not weird or confused! Also he shouldn't use me to play games why does he wanna be my friend? it isn't nice. He's an ass who needs to learn something. It just upsets me he thinks I bitch sometimes too when actually I'm only getting my point through and I'm not bitching he needs to understand I hate it. I just wanna be with Karlie and I will be soon enough! I will miss Pogge and my other few friends left here but I want to see her badly.  
dating stuff   
12:53am 14/08/2006
Dating StrengthsDating Weaknesses
1. Open-Mindedness - 72.7%
2. Varied Interests - 71.4%
3. Adventurousness - 66.7%
4. Intelligence - 57.1%
5. Optimism - 57.1%
1. Selfishness - 72.7%
2. Appearance - 66.7%
3. Humorlessness - 50%

Dating Strengths Explained
Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available girls.
Varied Interests - You don't limit yourself, and that's a dating asset. Your varied interests make you available and interesting to a wider range of girls.
Adventurousness - You are willing to try new things and be spontaneous. You want to get out there and really live, and you will attract people with a similar love of life.
Intelligence - Your sharp intellect is a valuable asset. Use your intelligence wisely; avoid condescension. Quiet, confident intelligence is very attractive.
Optimism - People are drawn to your positive outlook. Your optimism attracts others to you.

Dating Weaknesses Explained
Selfishness - You think too much of yourself and your needs. You must learn to put your partner first and tend to her needs.
Appearance - Devoting a greater effort at making good first impressions is a must. Try to be fit and develop a style if you want to catch a girl's attention.
Humorlessness - You need to learn how to take a joke, or better yet how to tell a good one. A well-developed sense of humor is high on the list of desired traits for daters.

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my hell   
05:38pm 17/07/2006

Kelly Clarkson, Tool, Megadeth
Circle I Limbo

Aretha Franklin , snobs
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Pop-Punk people, The KKK
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Fraternity/Sorority people, Brittney Spears
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Daystar TV, Uday Hussein, Qusay Hussein
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Limp-Bizkit, Saddam Hussein
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

shallow people
Circle VII Burning Sands

football players, mad cow
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Satanist, racist people, homophobes, murderers, Leukemia, animal testers, Anton LaVey, Osama bin Laden
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

this is me   
10:25am 11/07/2006


My name is


this is who I am

activist, admirer, adult, ambiguous, animal lover, artsy, ask me, caring, chapstick lesbian, chick, counselor, creative, cuddly, different, dog lover, dork, dreamer, eclectic, female, femme-ish, friend, friendly, full of love, homosexual, individual, lesbian, lover, loving, me, nellie, neutral, open, person, pixie, romantic, sensitive, shy, sister, split-brained, sweet, tomboy femme, undefined, understanding, unique, versatile

03:28am 28/06/2006

Jo messaged me around 6 today asking what I was doing and if I wasn't doing anything if I'd like to come hang out. Well... DUH! What do you think I did? So I hoped the train and 30 minutes later I find myself in Newton Centre. She told me to meet her at Starbucks. She wasn't there yet so I start to text her and she shows up. My heart jumped into my thoart. Can we say nervous? Yes... I was. We went to Diesel. Haven't been there in a while. Held hands on the way back to Davis Square station and on the train. She laid on my shoulder on the way to Hynes. We went to Virgin Mega Store. Why? I have no clue. To waste our last half hour, I guess. We had to part ways at Hynes. She had to go back to school and I had to go home. We cuddle hugged and kissed for like 10 minutes. 'Causing me to miss 2 trains home. It's ok though. I don't mind.

She's so fucking cute. She has ADD so bad but it's adorable. Never ran out of things to say to each other. She's so little. She comes up to my chin. It's cute.
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02:02am 24/06/2006
mood: happy



yeah so what if it was only one night, it doesn't matter, I love her and before she was going to be gone for bascilly two months and thats means no night time talks and I can't have that, it also meant only about 30mins a day to talk if that and it might not even be every day. It affected me enough though. Even though wer are spending the summer apart, the whole thing without the night time talks not much talking time bothered me. I just hope she can somehow smoke less because I know one day she wants to quit. I hope she keeps reading the doctor phil book and lastly I hope she finds a job. I love her and I know this is/was hard for her, I mean she goes to her friend Ryan's sometimes for the weekend, but this she knew would be for just about two months thats why the first night affected her so much, plus she didn't know anyone there. I told her when she comes to TX for a few years before we both head back/up to MA for good that I will take good care of her and she won't be affected like that, I will help her and be with her. I love her and even though I talked to her for 20mins today it still feels good to have her back.
Crappy Attack   
03:15am 18/06/2006
mood: numb
I just got done with this thing which was like an anxiety attack. I had some of it while on the phone with Karlie but all she knew is I was sad and not felling well but she though it was because of me being sad only. It sucked I had a little shaking but not a lot, first some coughs then a little heavy breathing, the shaking was last. I must admit I was a little sad, but I get that way late at night sometimes. This was worse I guess, I wanted Karlie to know so I text her, she was very tired, so she couldn't really talked. She text a little bit though. Well she was actually only still awake cause she was telling her neighboors she could hear them yelling and it was getting loud at 2:45am(pacific) then they weren't nice, then at 3:00am she told her neighboors bellow her who were on the back pourch to quiet down because it was 3am and then they yelled back or something then she said if you don't quiet down I'm going to call Pat the landlord so they stopped. Then she still didn't know what was going on with me just that I was sad and that she was very tired. Then I told her what was going on, and I told her I had had this at her house once or twice, she told me she couldn't remember and I told her more about it, then she finally text me with it and I told her yes right, but I told her it wasn't anxiety attack just like it, because I had nothing to have anxiety about. I mean I miss her a hell of a lot and I love her a lot. When she's up I'll hear from her I'm doing better now though I hope it stays this way. I have never had this happen when doing distance relationship for a summer thats why this is kind of odd. I mean I do love her, miss her, feel for her, and care a lot about her, so maybe thats why maybe this love is stronger, this love I think is stronger. Anyway now that I'm doing better and have posted this I'm going to try to go to sleep.
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love for her!   
03:03am 18/05/2006
  I miss Karlie more than anything and its only been almost two days. WOW summer will be fun, I just wish Karlie would be around to enjoy it with me I want everyone to meet my Karlie who has the most beautiful face ever! She's pretty! I love her more then life honestly I've only loved two other people and I promise that. I just don't want anything to go wrong in this relationship so I pray about that. She has made not want to not give up in school and to keep trying. She seen me in lots of pain and I know it hurt her. I hope one day she will be able to come to TX I know it will be hard, but I believe she can do it and she can go visit. I want her happy I hope one day she can be happy in TX, because I don't want to take her away from Everett where her family is if it will hurt her, but I must come back to TX for money reasons and now my few friends left. She will enjoy it here I hope my friends will welcome her and they really want to meet her she I know will make friends here because she'll meet Pogge and Pogge is good at being friends, making friends, and introducing people. She'll be friends with Kassi because Kassi is cool and friends with most and she likes Karlie's myspace profile, and one day she'll meet Katie yay! I want Karlie happy and I hope TX can do it for her but its not for a year or year 1/2 so we'll just live for now. Anyway Karlie is my reason smiles and my reason to love I didn't think I'd love again after Mike then Gretchen came back into my life and I loved but I knew it wouldn't last for me because I couldn't do it forever because she had/has Robert so I had to go because this love would hurt me and thinking of the future did hurt so I was like I don't need pain, only a friendship I must move on and try to find love if possible and think God Karlie found me on myspace because of Karlie she helped take the pain away and showed me I could love again and that I would be loved by her. I just hope Kar relize the pain I went through in love and the pain I went though recently. I just hope if she didn't know it all she'd ask because I'd love to tell her so its the past and ex's she needs to know. I love Karlie now and forever and I'm not leting go no lying no crosses counnt no nothing this is a promise and I'm sticking to my word as I'm off to bed. Night you all!  
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04:40pm 30/04/2006
  1] Who are you? Jo
[2] Are we friends? yes
[3] When and how did we meet? Feb 13th
[4] How have I affected you? been a good gf and kept me from being bored
[5] What do you think of me? I love you, you care and I love your head bob, your silly and I like it.
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me? when we talked and you told me you'd share your pound of twizzlers with me. Also you saw me after spring break for 4 days!
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies? forever lovers and friends
[8] Do you love me? duh
[9] Have I ever hurt you? well it happens but not that bad and I love you
[10] Would you hug me? yes
[11] Would you kiss me? yes
[12] Would you go out with me? duh I do
[13] Would you marry me? what do you think
[14] Emotionally, what stands out? fustration, love, hyperness, and weirdness
[15] Do you wish I was cooler? your fine to me
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I? 7
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable? duh
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word. kookie
[21] What was your first impression? hey she seems nice
[22] Do you still think that way about me now? duh most of the time
[23] What do you think my weakness is? you get agervated and madish easily, you tend to think people don't care, As well as that you think you suck at life (when it isn't true we all have issues)
[24] Do you think I'll get married? duh well the closest to it
[25] What about me make you happy? your photography, your sillyness, your head bob, your laugh, and that you'll come to see me when I need you.
[26] What about me makes you sad? cigs and how you deal with being mad with someone or at something.
[27] What reminds you of me? penguines, horror films, and fun little things like grow a b-day cake, and sudoko
[28] What's something you would change about me? the way you deal with your anger
[29] How well do you know me? pretty well
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? no did that weeks back
[31] Do you think I would kill someone? no
[32] Are we close? duh
[33] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? it is